ranting time

ok so i know that i just blogged a couple hours ago but i feel like ranting. to dorothy i guess and maybe phuong. or whoever else reads this.

i feel like i'm stuck in a rut. well not really a rut or maybe it is but that's beside the point. seeing as how i'm entering my senior year, thoughts about college and the future and whatnot are becoming more frequent. i know going to college is expected and a given so i know that much about my future already. but other than that i have no clue what to do with my life. i feel worried that i haven't found an interest yet and i know that there's nothing wrong with entering as undeclared but that doesn't really make me feel any better. everyone else just expects me to naturally do well in school because i'm "smart" and whatnot which puts even more pressure on me to do well. my friends brush away my worries with the same reasoning and seem to just enjoy the present. i can't avoid this forever since november is coming up but i wish i could just fast forward to march/april and see where i got accepted. (hm. i guess i do wish for things after all.) i hate this feeling but i guess it's just all part of this dreadful process called life.

randy told me that it's good to dream big but what if i don't know what to dream for?

anthropology sounds interesting for now